It's looking like it's not actually that big of a deal, and really Ausiello should just be beaten to a rotten pulp for causing so much drama (my head still hurts, despite totally calming down), but I can't get past the "once bitten, twice shy" syndrome.

The one and only thing I swore to myself I would never again let happen was to get fucked over by writers/producers & their "creative decisions" that then destroy my 'ship, break my heart and end with one of my actors no longer on the show - therefore removing any hope at all of future resolution.

I'm not saying that's what's actually happening here this time - I don't think it is. It definitely doesn't sound like it is anymore.

But what I am saying is that this is hitting just a little too damn close to home in terms of the nightmare I went through in 2004+. I cannot help but be a bit overly-sensitive and paranoid about it, regardless of the "facts" and my own intelligent ability to analyze situations correctly.

In general, I'm really excited for how this could go if it all does play out the way it's not sounding like it might. But then again... once a Carby, always a Carby, and there is absolutely nothing anyone can do to stop me from being even the tiniest bit paranoid that I'm about to get royally fucked up the ass again with a wooden spoon.

Last night, I ganked the season premiere of Bones from Canada. (Thanks, y'all!) I'm going to write up a full reaction blog later/tomorrow, but there are a few things I absolutely must get off my chest (again and again and again):

( Ready? Set? Flail. )

On another note, Glee last night was hilarious. As usual.

( 'Who is Josh Groban?' KILL YOURSELF. )

First of all, to all the new LJ friends who had added me a while ago and I only just now added you back -- yeah, my bad :p Nothing personal, I wasn't sitting around with a pro/con list debating whether or not we could be friends. I just fail that hard at keeping up with my notifications. I don't get emails when someone friends me (and prefer it that way), but that also means I often don't even notice someone has done so until weeks later when I get bored enough to look over my own profile page and notice the "Also Friend Of:" list. Whoops! Anyway, I'm all caught up with y'all now and excited to enjoy the new TV season with you guys <3

So it's the long weekend and instead of going back to NYC or out to Arizona or trotting around LA like I usually do every year on this weekend, I'm sitting at home telling myself I can use this time to finish packing for the move and (most importantly) finally start making some headway in my studying. Except that I've done none of that. Shocking. This is what happens, okay - it's the start of the new semester and also the last few weeks of TV hiatus. These are NOT good weeks for my productivity, because my brain is finally reaching the brink of impatience over waiting for new episodes of my shows while at the same time school is not yet intense enough to scare me into making a real effort. So even though I have a 4-day weekend here to get ahead in my studies, I'm probably just going to continue sitting here all day and all night, refreshing every website pertaining to my favorite shows as if they will suddenly and magically provide me updated news/spoilers/photos that weren't there when I last refreshed 30 seconds before. My life is incredibly exciting, isn't it?

But like I said, this is just how it is in these last few weeks of hiatus. Premiere week coincides oh-so-rudely with my first week of exams AND moving into the new house, so everything will get really busy and thrilling in both fandom and real life at the same time.

TO SUM UP: LIFE IS BORING AND TV NEEDS TO HURRY UP, MMKAY?

For the record: rinslet made me :P

Firstly: If you've been tagged, you must write your answers in your own LJ and replace any question that you dislike with a new, original question.
Secondly: Tag eight people. Don't refuse to do that. Don't tag whoever tagged you. (caroline_carter, phrentis, cinderellhn, angst_junkie, ikilledkenny86, kaitmaree77, mistopher, andibeth82)


( memes are for procrastination )

New info about Grey's Anatomy pissed me off enough to induce insta-blogging, so:

Grey's: Because ER Was Such a Great Role Model...


God help us all, it just keeps getting worse.

*headdesk*

...my icon is a representation of what I'd like to do to Shonda Rhimes, FYI.

If you are a true TV fan and have any sort of respect for/loyalty toward the people who toil and slave daily to bring us the characters and plots that we love, it is imperative that you read this immediately:


For anyone not aware, the author of that entry (and owner of that LJ) is House Co-Executive Producer and Writer, Doris Egan. What's happening right now between the Academy and television writers is just atrocious, and should not be allowed to continue without protest. I won't go on about it, because Doris can say it all far better than I, but really - go read it.

And do her (and, subsequently, all the writers you love) a favor by posting this and spreading the word absolutely anywhere and everywhere that you can.

And in light of my just-posted gloating, there's a new blog update all about just how I pwned yet another prediction:

House: This is Why I'm Hot


Also, I'm going to keep repeating this so you might as well get used to it: THE BLOG IS NOW READILY AVAILABLE HERE ON LIVEJOURNAL. IF YOU HAVE NOT YET JOINED TO WATCH/GET UPDATES ON YOUR F-LIST, THEN YOU KIND OF EPIC FAIL.

I love when I end up being right again about spoiler speculation/predictions.

It tastes of victory and awesome and pwnage.

Except that now I really can't stand the wait for the new season.

Chaaaaaaase. It's going to be so fucking epic.

September starts next week. Can we just skip that entire month? I'd really like to dive into October. Immediately.

Okay kids, here are the results! Making this stole years of my life, but hey -- is worth it for the pretty and the fun! Check it out!

( FANDOM TOP FIVES! )

So there you have it. Thoughts? Agree? Disagree? Anything my brain clearly forgot? CHOOSING ONLY FIVE IS REALLY, REALLY HARD, OKAY? :-P

Stole this from enigma731 , who "stole" it from kaitmaree77  - and I'm like more than a week behind on this shit because I HAVE BEEN REALLY BUSY, OKAY? :p

Fandom Top Fives, everyone! Ask me my fannish Top Five [Whatevers]. Any top fives. Doesn't matter what, really! And I will answer them all in a new post.


Do itttttt. It sounds really fun and I wanna play!

In other news, I know I have been epic failing at keeping up with LJ over hiatus. That's, um, what typically happens to me in the fandom world during hiatus. Plus super!intense summer school ate my soul. But now it's just regular school, which will probably also eat my soul, but hopefully at a slower pace. If you're still following me on here and haven't decided I totally suck for how much I fail at participation, then right the fuck on. Trust me, you don't want to hear about the horrors of my real life lately... and that was all I had to talk about for the past couple of months anyway. You've been better off.

But TV season is about to start again! Woot! I haven't really added anything completely new to my schedule this year, but there are some maybes. It's looking like my weeks are going to go as follows:

MONDAY:
House - 7pm/FOX (duh.)
Lie to Me - 8pm/FOX (trying this on for size...)

TUESDAY:
Hawthorne - 9pm/TNT (whenever it comes back. only watch for the Vartan anyway.)

WEDNESDAY:
Glee - 8pm/FOX (so. fucking. psyched.)

THURSDAY:
Bones - 7pm/FOX
Flashforward - 7pm/ABC (DVR, watch after Grey's or on Friday)
Grey's Anatomy - 8pm/ABC


And then we hit mid-season and I'll have to rearrange everything because FOX moves their shows around too much, Lost will finally be back to tell the final chapter, I'll watch Scrubs whenever Zach and/or Sarah make appearances, Parenthood is my new dose of Maura-love as soon as she gets healthy & we get to see it... and I'd mention Friday Night Lights for good measure, but I'm pretty sure NBC is holding it hostage until next summer.

Overall, this list is horribly pathetic in comparison to years past. I feel like it gets shorter every new season now. Either I'm becoming much more elitist with my taste/my interest in branching out is fading, or the quality of new TV out there is severely lacking. Meh.

Anyway! There that is. GIVE ME LISTS OF TOP FIVE FANDOM THINGS YOU WANT ME TO... LIST. READY? SET? COMMENT.

TITLE: Forgive Us Our Trespasses
AUTHOR: mae_vaughan
RATING: PG-13
PAIRING: canon Chase/Cameron
WARNINGS: vague spoilers
SPOILERS: Loosely based on general scoop for Season Six, but the overall concept is pure speculation.
SUMMARY: If only he could just snap his fingers; if only he could pinch himself; if only Cameron were beside him, gently shaking him from his tormented slumber and reassuring him with a tender touch that it was nothing more than a dream.
NOTES: One day what Jesse Spencer said last year is going to actually become a reality, and I'll no longer be laughed at for continually predicting it as a storyline at the wrong time. Until then, I'm going to use it as the premise of this fic and allow it to mingle in with the other actual spoilers we have for the new season. Please don't hesitate to let me know what you think -- feedback is lifeblood and this piece is something I would literally give my left kidney to see transpire in canon somehow. I hope you enjoy. Thanks and love to enigma731 for beta and endless amounts of input.


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( Oh, God, how is he supposed to explain this to Cameron? )

TITLE: Cascade
AUTHOR: mae_vaughan
RATING: NC-17
PAIRING: canon Chase/Cameron
SPOILERS: S5 finale “Both Sides Now”
WARNINGS: language, sex
SUMMARY: He knows exactly what she’s doing and he’s more than happy to let her tease.
NOTES: Never written smut before, but that doesn’t mean I’m inexperienced with it… That having been said, this is dedicated to my wonderful friend and co-mod, enigma731, who constantly writes such incredible smut for the rest of us to read. She deserves to have someone else write it from time to time so that she can enjoy it as a reader instead of the author once in a while. What’s more, there’s just nowhere near enough honeymoon fic/smut floating around for an OTP that just got married ☺ This was beta’d by the lovely kaitmaree77, so all remaining errors and typos are completely my fault. I hope you enjoy this, and I hope you’ll let me know if you do.

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( I still can't believe you're my wife. )

TITLE: The Great Unknown
AUTHOR: mae_vaughan
PAIRING: canon Chase/Cameron
RATING: PG13
WARNINGS: Spoilers.
SPOILERS: Up to 5x24 "Both Sides Now"
SUMMARY: "He never assumed that parenting would be easy, but he also never would have guessed it could be this mind-numbing and exasperating—this capable of making you question your every ability to succeed—in such a short period of time."
NOTES: I don't even know. I've had the concept in my brain for months, and I've been poking at this for weeks. It's un-beta'd, so all mistakes are a result of my own tired mind. I'm not sure how I feel about this one - writing for the new, sweeter and sappier version of CC that exists in canon now (even though I adore them that way) is proving more difficult to write for than when we barely knew their relationship at all. Anyway, I like to imagine that they'd be at least somewhat like this were such situations ever to play out on our TV screens. I hope you'll enjoy it.


( Maybe they even make these with koalas. )

So, today I took my car in for service and they had to keep it overnight. This resulted in my having a loaner for the day/evening, which meant I was unable to listen to my iPod in the car. I pretty much never listen to the radio anymore unless I'm forced to, and today was one of those "forced to" days. I heard many songs that I had been unaware of - some good, some horrid - but I hear one particular song at least four times. And every single time, it made me think about 'shipping.

Why? Because that's what happens when I listen to music. My brain instantly starts to think about what pairing fits the lyrics of every single song that I hear. If it's a really good song, I even start formulating fanvids in my mind as I listen to the music.

So I heard this song repeatedly today, and it's not a happy-ending song. So I was like... WTF, who can I apply this to and actually make it fit without it being prematurely depressing?

OH, YEAH: CARTER AND ABBY. THAT'S WHO.

But seriously, once I really started to listening to it again with them in mind... yeah, this song pwns them. In an incredibly depressing way, but still. I also think it totally describes the POV of a lot of us Carby fangirls back in our final days with the show/'ship when we had reached the point of no return.

Anyway, check this out -- Carby fans, don't you think this is disturbingly fitting? I'm super fucking tempted to do a fanvid, but I'm not sure if I'll ever have the emotional stability to delve into those clips ever again :-p

( LYRICS )
 

 

Oh, and just in case you want to be reminded of why Carby are "a tough act to follow" (read: torture yourself), check this out:




*HEADDESK* FUCK YOU, JOHN WELLS. FUCK. YOU.
 

 

So, I made another fanvid. This has also been on my list of songs to video since, like, last September. I was planning on writing fics this hiatus, but my fic muse either refuses to cooperate or it wants to play but my brain won't properly engage. Thus, I end up making fanvids instead. This may be it for a while, though - we'll see. I start school again in about a week and a half, and I don't expect to have time to sit and edit and/or write after that :( Anyway, in the meantime, I hope some of you will watch this and let me know what you think...

This is me attempting (and failing wonderfully) to review the finale of Grey's: Blinded By Post-it Rage.

Enjoy. Bitchiness is food for the soul, people.

Going on two weeks now since the House finale and still - STILL - this is the kind of thing that happens between Chase/Cameron fans:




mae_vaughan: You know what's weird? I can stare at the pictures and watch the scenes over and over and then write honeymoon fic... and still there are times where my brain just goes "Whoa, Chase and Cameron got married. Whoa."
kaitmaree77: RIGHT.
kaitmaree77: I KNOW.
mae_vaughan: It's like days keep passing but it's still not sinking in.
kaitmaree77: I know.
mae_vaughan: All of a sudden I just get like OMFG CHASE AND CAMERON GOT MARRIED? MARRIED. THEY GOT FUCKING MARRIED. WHAT WORLD AM I LIVING IN?
kaitmaree77: I KNOW RIGHT.
kaitmaree77: HEY MAE!? GUESS WHAT!?
mae_vaughan: SOMEONE GOT MARRIED?!?!?
kaitmaree77: YES.
kaitmaree77: THIS PRETTY COUPLE ON THAT MEDICAL SHOW WE WATCH.
mae_vaughan: WHAT ARE THEIR NAMES? I FORGET. THEY ARE TOO PRETTY.
kaitmaree77: CHASE AND............WHATSHERFACE!? OH YEAH. CAMERON. CHASE AND CAMERON.
mae_vaughan: EXCEPT NOW SHE'S CHASE, TOO.
mae_vaughan: ZOMG.
kaitmaree77: RIGHT YES.
kaitmaree77: TWO CHASES.
kaitmaree77: WHAT IS THE PLURAL OF CHASE!?
mae_vaughan: UM... CHASE, SQUARED?
kaitmaree77: YES THAT.
mae_vaughan: IF HE KEEPS CALLING HER CAMERON, I AM GOING TO BE UNHAPPY.
kaitmaree77: AWW.
mae_vaughan: EVERYONE ELSE CAN CALL HER CAMERON, BUT NOT HIM. NOT ALLOWED.
kaitmaree77: DEFINITELY NOT.
mae_vaughan: I watched Maternity last night and WILSON called her Allison.
kaitmaree77: Ohhhh yeah.
mae_vaughan: I'm like... okay, c'mon, you gotta let the husband start doing that.
kaitmaree77: LOL yes.
kaitmaree77: In a way other than mocking like in Control.
mae_vaughan: YES LULZ.
mae_vaughan: "DUH, ALLISON."
kaitmaree77: <3333


Really, I have a feeling conversations like this are going to happen for the next four months, at least. They could keep happening for the next few years, depending on whether or not the sheer awesomeness of it all ever actually sinks in completely...

ZOMG I CANNOT WAIT FOR NEXT SEASON. I WANT TO HEAR HIM CALL HER HIS WIFE SO BAD. SO. FUCKING. BAD.

Since my mission to watch every episode of Scrubs isn't working out so well thanks to it being unavailable for free streaming pretty much ANYWHERE online, I'm just going to sit here and fill out this meme until MegaVideo is done making me wait another 54 minutes before I can start watching again. Rude, really, but whatevvvvvvvvvvv.

And so, an iTunes shuffle meme...

( Music is the glue of the world. )

TITLE: Every Stumbled Step
AUTHOR: mae_vaughan
RATING: PG-13
WARNINGS: I suppose... references to sex?
SPOILERS: Everything, ever, all the way to "Both Sides Now." If you haven't seen the S5 finale and do not want to be spoiled, I'd run away right now.
SUMMARY: Honeymoon fic! “This is who we are, babe. There’s a reason for everything..." Chase & Cameron discuss their unorthodox history together.
NOTES: Thanks to kaitmaree77 for giving this a look-see and providing encouraging feedback. Chase and Cameron have always been the definition of "accidentally in love" to me, and I think it's important to always remember how they started and how far they've come since then. I imagine it's always in the backs of their minds, too, and this is a story of them acknowledging it all very openly. Hopefully it's fitting.

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( Do you have any regrets? About us? )